Maybe its the fact that its 3 in the morning and i cant sleep. Maybe its the 4 beers i had in the last 2 hours. Heck, maybe its Mabyelline! But i have come to the conclusion that if my life were a movie, i would currently be the “best friend” role. You know what i’m talking about. The supportive friend that always helps the protagonist find their true love (or some other grand adventure). But then the camera always goes to the main character of the story, leaving the tales of the sidekick on the cutting room floor. Don’t get me wrong, I love popping my head in with a quick one liner (“im gonna rip out her weave!”) and fulfill the role as the comic relief. Or give my friend the cheesy words he/she needs to climb over that last hill where happiness is waiting on the other side. (“listen to me, you just need to get out of your own way”) You know… the happiness that is waiting for you in the middle of all that greener grass.
The point i’m trying to make is that we all have our roles.
Currently I have little money, no girl friend, student loans, no real life plan and i’m a little bit under the weather. (stupid allergies) But it will all turn out soon :) I have had waaaaayy to much fun the past 4 years playing and touring in the two bands i have been in. I have met so many cool people and have seen and experienced things few get to. I think that I have had my time in the light and now i need to learn to be a good supporting actor. Im ready for the challenge. I am turning 24 in a week or so. I need to start acting like it. Maybe if i grow up i will be able to find the job i need or a girl that believes in me.
*note: this is not supposed to be depressing. Its just wasy for me to process my thoughts when writing. Since my notebook is in my car and im now in bed, tumblr will do. im excited for this new chapter…
I just hope that somewhere, someday, someone would be inspired enough by a lyric that I wrote to get it tattooed on themselves. I hope the first Fox & Mariner album my brother and I release will do that for someone.
This is a short film about two young robots and true love. Created by Spike Jonze (where the wild things are) I don’t know why you have to be 18 to enter the site, but watch this film!!!! Its a beautiful 30 minutes.
I had a fun 6 days traveling over CA. The cities were different each day. Santa cruz, Fresno, San Luis Obispo, Pismo Beach, Orange County & Azusa. I really wish I could have been gone longer and seen more friends, but unfortunately I was needed at home and had to come back a little bit early. Thanks everyone for letting me crash on your couch/bed/floor and it seems feeding me as well. I don’t remember buying too many meals.
When I left on Sunday, I felt that I was looking for something. Some answer that would tell me what road I was supposed to take next or how I should start living my life. To be honest I was pushed in the opposite direction. On this trip I didn’t listen to music in my car at all (except if there was a friend for a short distance) and it gave me a lot of time to think. There is so many things I love to do and a couple of those things i’m not not horrible at. However, despite my figurative car still sitting at life’s big intersection. This little trip brought me a certain amount of peace. I know whatever career I decide to pursue will be fun. I know that the girl I am meant to be with will be revealed to us when the time is right. And I know my friends are always there for me and willing to drop things last minute to hangout! Haha.
Now that I am home, its back to work. Designing and recording. I am pretty blessed to be having fun while working. If you want to hangout give me a call! I don’t need a road trip to hang with friends.
Today is day number five on my little vacation. Fresno to Santa Cruz to San Luis Obispo to Pismo Beach and last night I drove to Orange County and stayed at the apartment of “The Wandering Tree” guys. Unfortunately last night they were serving free coffee at the casino in Pismo Beach and I couldnt stop drinking!!! So I didnt really go to sleep till 5am and then got up at 9:30 to go to their band practice and hear some new songs.
I want to talk about my time in Pismo Beach. First off, so good to see my friends elijah and andy AND to get to hang with all of their roommates. It was pretty harsh saying goodbye. So we went to the beach where it was waaayy to hot, but coming back to a beer and a nice nap was incredible. Then we all took off for a worship night where andy was playing drums at his church. After glorifying God for a bit, we had some sinning to do, haha, so we went straight to the nice casino in the area. I didnt know this, but of you are a first time guest you get a free 50 credits of slot play. So I took that to some video poker and won $37 then to another machine and won another $35. I am pretty sure i have the casino figured out and didnt get sucked back in so i just cashed out and had all my gas covered for the trip!!! I think this is a sign i was supposed to do this.
(currently writing this while listening to The Wandering Tree jam new songs. They sound really, really good)
So I have 3 days left to do whatever I want. No real idea what the plan is. I just know I should probably be back on sunday for mothers day. Don’t want to miss out on a day to love on my moms. Hopefully this was an interesting post. I am having tons of fun.
oh man! im so sorry that i didnt answer. I didnt see your question till now! The album is coming along nice and slow. Myself & my brother are writing it together. So we are gonna use some of his songs and some of mine. Then work on them together to have them match just a little bit better. Pretty pumped! and THANK YOU for asking. haha
To answer all the questions, I am officially on holiday. Sunday after church I came home, layed on my bed and watched some movies while waiting for later plans. I was sitting there zoning out and staring at all the things in my room I have acquired over the years and became overwhelmed with guilt. I have put so much energy, time, focus and attention into acquiring all my things that I had been basing my levels of happiness to the amount of objects I could own. It made me feel sick. So as I was waiting for my plans, my room was the last place I wanted to be.
When the plans fell through I realized I spend so much time waiting for things to happen. Tired of waiting for a tour to see my friends and being tied down to that schedule. So I just got up, grabbed my wallet and keys and started driving. Next thing I know I’m in Fresno, CA. After a night of rest I decided that I made the best decision possible and that I should stay on the road. So driving south I called a friend and stayed in San Luis Obispo. After that I went to pismo beach and am staying here tonight with some awesome new friends. I don’t know what my plans are yet, but I like not having a schedule. If something sounds fun I will go there. If something is boring, I leave. Simple as that.
A few people have said, “you are so lucky you can do that. Sounds adventurous.” To be perfectly blunt. I’m not lucky. We all put ourselves in the positions we are in. I chose to be able to have a loose schedule, so I chose to have a design job I can do on the road. If you want to live your life a certain way, just do it. In no way have I reached my lifes goal, far from it, but I enjoy where I’m at now. Living each day spontaniously is intoxicating. I wonder if there is a fellow tumbleweed out there I’m supposed to find. I hope so.
P.s. I typed this on my phone while laying in bed. Haha. This appartment by the beach is incredible. ALSO you have to have a passport to go to mexico?!?! Lame. That idea was crushed.
Call me if you wanna hangout :) I have no plans.